Well big brother it is 2am and I can't seem to fall a sleep. I guess you and Terry are on my mind alot. I thought I would be done with this by now, but I am not. They say it gets easer with time, when is that time going to be for me. I don't worry about where ur at, I know ur flying high in Heaven with the other angels. Today I ran across some photos of the funeral. And I suppose that is why I'm thinking about u so much. You know when I see a white chevy it still makes me think about what you wanted before u died, a white chevy truck. Stay with all of us and help us realize why u needed to go. There are other people out there who should of gone before u. Everyone tells me that God needed you more up there then He did down here, but I don't understand why He chooses to leave the ones here who are misarable and make everyone around them the same way. There are some down here who are ready to live this world but He keeps them here forever. David says its because they need to learn a lesson and have not done so yet. I just call it crual. What about the ones who try to take their lives, they live on knowing that some one will come to their rescue. I have a lot of questions, but no answers. Or at least God has given me none. I don't blame God I just don't understand why? The tree in the front yard is named after u and Terry it is Boberry. It is growing real tall every day. When it rains I think that is you and Terry crying to let me know that you are there and always close to my heart. The two of you will always be close to my heart. I just wish I would of done more seeing the two of u while u were down here instead of holding you close to my heart once you two are gone. But that was my mistake and I am hoping with the rest of the family I can make it up to them. I have not talked to Terri in a long while, I'm letting you down because I was going to call her at least once a week, but my problem is I don't know when she is not busy. I know she has a second job, and I know because of it she has alot of other things she has to do, work does take up a persons time. Well Bob there are a few things I need answered can you please go to God and ask Him to help me throught them, you and God know what they are. First I am going to MO. on Weds. please help us make it there, the other two or personal. Love you forever, u are forever in my heart and on my mind.
Your sister Trina

I can't believe that it is almost 8 months since you left us. Well I guess I better go, I love you and miss you more then words can describe. Your little sister trina

WELL BOB ONE YEAR AGO THANKSGIVING DAY I MADE YOUR FIRST CHERRY COBBLER. YOU TOLD MOM FOR ME TO MAKE YOU ANOTHER ONE. SO I DID. I MADE YOU THREE BEWTEEN THEN AND CHRISTMAS. I DID NOT GET TOO SEE YOU BUT IT MADE ME FEEL GOOD THAT I COULD DO THAT ONE THING FOR YOU BEFORE YOU LEFT US. I ALWAYS HEARD HOW BAD YOU LOOKED AND THEN SOME WOULD SAY YOU LOOKED GOOD BUT IT DEPENDED ON WHO THAT I ASKED. BUT I PRETTY WELL KNEW WHAT YOU WERE GOING THRU, AND WAS HOPING I COULD SEE YOU ONE DAY SOON AND I FINALLY DID. AND THEN SHORTLY AFTER THAT YOU WERE GONE. I GOT TO TELL YOU I LOVED YOU BRO AND GIVE YOU THAT LAST KISS WHILE YOU WERE STIL HERE, AND NOT ANYMORE UNTIL THE DAY WE LAID YOU TOO REST. YOU LOOKED SO PEACEFUL THAT DAY, I KISSED YOU ON THE FOREHEAD AND TOLD YOU I LOVE YOU BRO. AND WALKED OFF. THEN ALLTHE FAMILY WENTIN ONE MORE TIME, AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT YOU FUNNIEST TIMES AND THRU THE TEARS WE WERE LAUGHING FOR A WHILE THEN WE RELIZED WE WOULD NEVER SEE ANYMORE OF THOSE TIMES AND COULDN"T STOP CRYING AND WE AL HAD TO JUST LEAVE YOU THERE ALL BY YOURSELF BUT SOME OF KEPT LOOKING BACK AS WE WALKED TOWARDS THE DOOR, KAREN WAS ON ONE DOOR AND I ON THE OTHER SIDE JUST LOOKING AT YOUCRYING OUR HEARTS OUT, WE JUST DID NOT WANT TO LEAVE YOU THEN. CARL HAD TO GET KAREN RANDY HAD TOO GET ME, AND HEAD US OUTSIDE. I WISHED RANDY COULD OF MET YOU BEFORE THAT DAY. I TOLD HIM THAT HE WOULD OF REALLY LIKED YOU. BUT HE ONLY GOT TO SEE YOU WHEN YOU HAD ALREADY GONE. I LOVE YOU BRO. YOU WERE A GOOD BROTHER BACK IN THE DAY. A FUNNY BROTHER, MOSWT OF THE TIME. I WILL ALWAYS MISS THOSE DAYS. AWAY BACK THEN. BUT UNTIL I CAN SEE YOU SOMEDAY, I LOVE YOU AND WILL MISS YOU THIS HOLIDAY SEASON, MAKING THOSE CHERRY COBBLERS FOR YOU, BUT MY HEART AND SOUL WILL BE WITH YOU, AND THINKING OF YOU.