Robert Tipton

Hello Big Brother,

Well just sitting here thinking about what was going on 2 years ago today at this time. We all lost "our Robert". It was this time in the early morning hours that Teri called and said that you were gone. I still can't believe that you have been gone for two years.  I wish we could go back in time, a time when you were not sick. Instead of feeling the pain from your loss, I wish we could have many more happy memories of you to hold on to. We all miss you very, very much. I wish that this was all a dream and that when I wake it were not true. I know that is not going to happen, but we can all still wish. I know one day I will see you in Heaven. That we will all dance with you and Terry again. I would much rather have you here on earth with to dance with, but for now I guess what I do have will have to do. I am planning on going out to your grave today, I have not been for awhile and being that I am leaving for MO. on Thursday I would like to bid farewell until I come back to AZ.

Me and Mary share memories of you togather. I don't know if she is going to feel up to it this time, but either way I know you will be there in spirit. She will be meeting you in Heaven someday soon,  God has not chosen her yet. And I know the three of you will have your own family get together. It will be better then anything we have down here on earth.

Stay with me while I am flying, you know how much I hate to fly. You take one side of the plane and Terry can take the other side, that way I am covered on both ends. I want to see the two of you, but not that way. Just like when you were here you can still "watch" over me and keep me safe. I know that you and Terry were both here that day when 911 had to be called on me. I was so scared, and I still am when I think about it. I think it scared me more then anything else in my life. Getting in a car accident use to scare me, but not as much as that did. It did'nt hurt or anything like that, just knowing that I was not in control of what was happening scared me. I knew when the seizures where coming and that is what scared me. I kept telling dad I was dying and that is how I felt. then I would come to and be alright for a little bit longer and another one would come. I was never happier in my life then when the permedics got here. So I am thankful that you and Terry both were here to keep an eye out on me. I don't think mom or dad either one could handle losing me in front of them, that would be terrible.

Well I better go it's getting late and I have a lot of things to do tomorrow, keep an eye on everyone and everything here. Your just a heart beat away and a few memories or so.

Love you

Trina

Hi Bob,

 

This last week we went camping again. At Christopher Creek. For the very first time I caught a fish. I was so excited. I can't wait until the next time I get to go. When I am up at the creek I always think of you and Terry, wishing that the two of you could be there. This time around there was a man who taught Cory and I how to fish. I know you would of been proud. I go up there camping and during the time there I always think of you and Terry. Sometimes I think of the way things should be, and then at other times I think of the way it was when you went camping. I can only think of the stories you would come up with to tell the rest of us who did not make it out with you. Or the stories you would tell others about other times you would go..... Those were the happiest days of your life, and now I can see why you loved to camp so much. You get a chance to get out and explore nature. the air up there is so much better then here, it is so peaceful and beautiful. When I am there I feel like you and Terry are still there. One day I had a fish that just would not be caught. It would go around my bait and look up at me, like saying "Ha Ha I know you are there, but you will never get me"! I thought of you and Terry, that is something that the two of you would pull on people.

 

Again I will be going to MO. to see Aunt Mary. I plan on coming out to see you and Terry before I leave.  In 13 days it will be 2 years since you have been gone. I miss you so very much to this day. It is still hard, I don't know how Terri or the kids do it. I was just a sister, they were your kids and wife. I know if it is hard on me it has to be hard on them. I don't get on here to much any more but that does not mean I still don't miss you and love you any the less. You will always be one of my hero's and you will always be on my mind. I still remember things just like they happened yesterday. There are times that I will do something and think that Bob would of done that also. Or there are times when I will see someone who looks like you and I start to smile and laugh, thinking that you send some of these people just to let me know you are still here with me in my heart, you will always be with me Bob. No matter what I am doing or where I am going I know you are still by my side. Well just wanted you to know how my trip went and to say that I love you with all my heart, wish you were still here to give advice like only Robert could do.

Love always,

Trina

 

Here is a pix. of the boys at your and Terry's grave.

Hi Bob,

 

Have not been on here lately. Just wanted to thank you for being with dad during this time. You more then anyone understands what is going on in his mind. Dad won't ever admit it, but you can tell he is a little scared. He always says he is not taking anymore chemo, but of course he does, you know how dad is. I am glad he is the way he is, other wise by now we might have lost him. He is doing good, he had surgery, the doctor had to leave a few lymph nodes behind because they are connected to major blood vessels. They are hoping that with four more doses of chemo he will be good to go for a while. Keep an eye on him and talk to God for us, your closer where you are at....

Once again I am leaving for MO. Aunt Mary is not going to be with us long, they gave her about 6 months I think it was. Last year I went because it was not going to be long then, but I think this time they are correct, so I want to go and see her one more time. I remember times spent with her and Leo. I enjoyed them a lot. So once again help that plane stay in the air. A month ago I had to have 911 called on me, my blood sugar went down past 10. they ER doctor's said I should of came in dead. but I guess God is not ready for me yet. I know if you were here you would be on my butt like you were when mom and dad went to visit grandma Tipton and I did'nt have money to buy insulin. I ended up in the hospital and you throw a fit, telling me how dumb could I be and that I had family that would help, I just needed to ask for it and that you would give me the money to get insulin or what ever it was I needed. I never thought to much about it until after you were gone. I realized that there was not to much that went on with out you knowing. I know there was many times that you had my back and I was not even aware of it. thank you for being my brother. I could not ask for anyone better. Like the saying goes "You never know what you have until it is taken from you." In mine and your case this applies. I never knew what I had but once I lost you I knew I lost someone very important to me. Someone I should of kept closer to me then what I did. Not take advantage of you and thinking that you would be around because you were close to my age. I love you and miss you. I know I should of said those words more to you when you were here with us, but I did not and I can't take that back. If I could right one wrong in my life it would be telling you how much I loved you and thanking you for being the man you were in my life.

 

I miss you and please continue to look down on us. Stay with dad while he takes chemo and stay with the rest of the family as we journey with dad through this time when he needs his family most. I might not of been there for you like I should of been, but I will be there for our dad when he needs us.

 

Love you bunches

Trina

i have not yhat much i tought i  woukd say i love and terry. dad could reslly use you right and dad fought a giio fight, with dad he does dad fought that one and won soo far. but how come to rhe end you were finished

hi bob,writing you to tell u carl called me last night and ask for a divorce,he said he wasnt happy and he could tell im not enther.he said he needed to move on and so did i.he said he thought about quiting his job n moving down but he didnt want to go through the testing and he thought about me quiting my job but i need to work,so he said the only thing to do is get a divorce and move on with r lives.it hurts but i know its the best thing we cant keep living like this,me doing my thing n him doing his. bob help me through this and keep ur arms around every one love karen   

WELL BOB I WAS READING KARENS MESSAGE TOO YOU, AND ALL I CAN SAY IS FOLLOW YOUR HEART... I BELEIVE THATS WHAT BOB WOULD SAY.... BUT THERE NEEDS TO BE AND END ON THE PART OF THE MARRIAGE KAREN.,, DO NOT EVER LET REAL LOVE JUST SLIP BY I DID AND I HAVE PAID A REAL GOOD PRICE, FOR NOT FOLLOWONG MY HEART. YOU JUST NEED TO THINK ABOUT THINGS THE RIGHT WAY KAREN AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OK. THATS WHAT BOB WOULD SAY. CALL ME KAREN IF YOU NEED TOO TALK ILOVE ALL MY FAMILY AND WOULD LIKE TO DO WHATEVER I COULD TOO HELP' AND BOB LEAD KAREN IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION WOULD YOU. I KNOW YOU CAN WE ALL MISS YOU, YOU AND YOUR COMICAL WAYS AND JOKES. SEE YOU ONE DAY.. WATCH OVER DAD HE NEEDS YOU NOW. BAD. WE LOVE YOU AND TERRY SO MUCH AND IT STILL SEEMS A DREAM AND I WILL WAKE UP AND YOU BOTH WILL BE HERE. THEN I KNOW YOU BOTH WON"T. SEE YOU BOTH SOMEDAY WELL I SAY GOODNIGHT NOW  I LOOK INTO THE SKY AND SAY GOOGNIGHT TO YOU BOTH ALWAYS TILL NEXT TIME. JUST LEAD ALL OF US TO THE RIGHT PATH.

                                        LOVE LINDA

HI,BOB I MISS YOU O HOW I WISH YOU WER HERE.BOB I NEED SOME ONE TO TALK WITH.YOU WER THAT GUY I COULD ALWAYS TALK TO ABOUT ANY THING.BOB I MEET  SOME ONE THAT I CARE FOR DEEPLY,I KNOW ITS NOT RIGHT IM MARRIED TO A GREAT GUY BUT THAT GUY IM MARRIED TO DONT WANT TO LIVE TOGETHER HE WANTS TO STAY UP NORTH AND DONT WANT ME TO COME UP BECAUSE I HAVE TO WORK AS HE PUTS IT,,SO I STARTED GO OUT WITH FRIENDS DANCING AND I MEET SOME ONE LAST YEAR I WOULD SEE HIM OUT EVERY NOW N THY AND WE STARTED TALKING MORE WE STARTED HANGING OUT MORE AND DANCING.TWO WEEKS AGO WE STARTED SEEING EACH OTHER EVERY  DAY AFTER I WOULD GET OFF WORK HE WOULD TEXT ME ALL DAY LONG WHILE I WOULD  B WORKING.IT FELT GOOD IT WAS NICE TO HAVE THAT SOME ONE WHO WANTED TO B WITH YOU.THAT SOME ONE WHO CARED FOR U WE HAD FUN TOGETHER HE MADE ME LAUGH,SMILE,SHOWED ME I CAN CARE FOR SOME ONE,BOB I NEVER MITE TO MEET ANYONE IT JUST HAPPEN AND THY LAST NIGHT HE TOLD ME HE COULDNT DO THIS ITS WRONG AND I UNDER STAND THAT IT JUST ISNT EASY TO LET HIM GO,BECAUSE I HAVENT FELT THIS WAY FOR SOME ONE N A VERY LONG TIME,I CAN SAY I CARE FOR HIM AS MUCH AS I CARED FOR RICK CROW AND U NEW HOW MUCH THAT WAS.IT HURTS AND THAT IS WHY I NEVER LET A GUY GET THIS CLOSE TO ME,AND I LET HIM HE SAID ALL THE RIGHT THINGS I GUESS I JUST DIDNT  WANT TO LOOSE HIM ,IT FELT GOOD HAVING SOMEONE THAT CARED FOR U AND SHOWED THAT THY CARED FOR U.HOW I DONT HAVE THAT AGAIN. BOB HELP ME THROUGH THIS LOVE UR LITTLE SIS KAREN

WELL BOB WE ARE ALL HERE AND LIKE KAREN SAID, DAD REALLY COULD USE YOU RIGHT NOW. HE IS GOING THRU A VERY TOUGH TIME IN HIS LIFE. WISH YOU WERE HERE SO HE WOULD HAVE SOMEBODY TOO TALK TOO. WELL BOB JUST WRAP YOUR ARMS AROUND US. WE ALL MISS THE BOTH OF YOU...

HI BOB,I MISS YOU,MISS TALKING WITH YOU,MISS CALLING YOU,MISS SEEING YOU.BOB DAD NEEDS YOU MORE THY EVER I TRY TO TALK WITH HIM BUT I KNOW HE MISSES YOU HE MISSES GOING AND VISITING YOU. I TOOK HIM AND MOM YOU SUNDAY FOR PIE N COFFEE BOTH OF THEM SEEM TO ENJOY IT.MOM TALKED ABOUT YOU AND TERRY DAD SAID HE MISSES YOU TWO AND WHEN WE WER TALKING ABOUT YOU GUY  DAD STARTED CRYING.BOB KEEP US SAFE AND HELP DAD THUR THIS HE NEEDS YOU.I MISS YOU LOVE YOU    

Hello Bob,

I finally did what you and Terry wanted me to do all those years. Mine and Gary's divorce was final on Thursday Feb, 25th.  It was almost on Cody's birthday, missed it by one day. And that was because Gary had a fit and called my lawer. I am glad it is over, but I have some fears about moving on. I was with him for 18 years, a long time. I know you and Terry did not like him. You always threatened to go and kick his ass, just like any big brother would do. I know you are watching down and you and Terry had your own little party up there.  Thank you for being in the court room that day, holding my hand. It was like the two of you were there.

Mom and dad are now living with me. It hurts me to think that you left us the same way that dad might. I am scared for him, but I am doing for him like I wished I was able to do for you. I know you had Terri and the kids, but I still wished I could of done something for you. So I figured I would do for dad. It is not only that reason, dad and mom took care of me all those years, I can finally give back to them. They were there for me when I was sick. Mom and dad both came to the hospital when I went into my diabetic coma. You know how much dad hates hospitals. I know dad is scared. You and Terry look down on him  more then ever and give him the strength and courge that you had going through this. Stay with me while I take care of him. I know that eveditalnly it will get worse for him. I am planning on having him die here with me. Karen I think is worried whether or not I can handle it but I would much rather him die here around family and in comfort then go to a nursing home, hospital, or hospice care home. I promised myself a long time ago that no family member would go through that if I could do something to help them. Often times I do think about the day or night he passes, I hope that I can handle it like Terri did with you. Even more importanly I hope dad goes through no pain, that will be harder on him and on me. The fact that I can't do anything for him and him in pain. You know how much I am a control freak. But seriously, I don't want him to suffer. I pray that he will be alright when they do the MRI on him and that he can have his kidney taken out and that he lives another 10 or 20 years. W

Well Bob I feel more at peace, when I talk to you. Just keep all of us safe, and like I said please stay with dad as he goes through the same thing as you did. You know dad does not understand what is happening to him, with his education and all being as it is. And I know most of what the doctors are saying to him is hard to understand. I try to help him understand, but at times he just looks at me with a blank stare. And that is when I wish he were not going through this.

Well bob I miss you and love you, wish more then anything you were here. We all need you more then anything. Your jokes, your wisdom, you because dad's little buddy would understand and he would have someone to talk to. I know God knows what he is doing, but it does not make things easier. When He is ready to take you, He is ready. Rather you are or your family is. Talk to you again

Trina

HI MY BROTHER,JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU ALOT LATELY.I SAW RENE  FRIDAY NIGHT SHE STILL LOOKS THE SAME BOB.THE SAME OLD RENE ALWAYS LAUGHING.SHE SAID SHE IS GOING TO RETRIE THE END OF THE YEAR WITH 32 YEARS ON.IT BROUGHT BACK SO MANY MEMORIES OF WHEN YOUO AND I WORKED.BOB IT DOESNT SEEM LIKE YOU AND TERRY R GONE.I KNOW YOU R BUT ITS JUST HARD TO BELIVE I GUESS.I WENT AND EAT AT THE FRUIT STAND YOU US TO TAKE UR ORANGES THE FOOD WAS REALLY GOOD.I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU AND I TOLD MY PARTER YOU US TO BRING UR ORANGES THR TO SALE.SETING THR REMINDED ME OF WHEN WE WER YOUNGER AND PLAYED N THE ORANGE GROVES.I SET THR LOOKING OUT AT THE GUYS GOING THUR THE ORANGES AND PULLING THE BAD ONES OUT AND  THOUGHT I SAW U FOR A MINT,IT LOOKED JUST LIKE U BUT WHEN THEY TURNED AROUND IT WASNT.I MISS YOU SO MUCH,I TRY NOT TO CRY BOB BUT EVERY TIME I SEE SOME THING YOU DID R WE DID TOGETHER IT HURTS,NOW I MITE  BE LOOSING MY DAD BOB HELP DAD THUR THIS HE NEEDS YOU,WE ALL DO.

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU    

WELL BOB DAD FOUND OUT THAT HE HAS CANCER.TRINA HAD TO CALL 911 TO TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPTAIL, HE WAS IN THR FOR A WEEK.ON TRINAS BRITHDAY FEB 5TH THE DOCTOR HOLD HIM HE HAS CANCER STAGE 3 MAYBE STAGE4 NOT SURE.HE STARTED KEMIO SAT FEB 6TH MOM N DAD R STAYING WITH TRINA HER AND TALKED WE THOUGHT THAT WOULD B BEST FOR THEM. BOB HELP HIM THROUGH THIS ITS GOING TO B HARD FOR HIM.THE DOC TOLD HIM THAT IN 8 WEEKS AND IF HE DONT HAVE CANCER IN HIS LUNGS THEY CAN GO IN N REMOVE THE TUMER AND LEFT KINNDEY AND GIVE HIM 15 MOS IF IT IS N HIS LUNGS THY CANT DO ANY THING FOR HIM ,ITS A WAITING GAME.I FEEL SO HELPES I CANT SEE HIM CRY IT HURTS.MOM ISNT UNSTANDING SHE THINKS HE WILL B OKAY AND I HOPE HE WILL.BUT U KNOW IF GOD WANTS YOU IT DONT MATTER NO DOC CAN SAVE YOU SO BOB IM ASKING YOU AND TERRY HELP HIM THROUGH THIS HE NEEDS YOU TWO MORE THY EVER.TRINA IS DOING ALOT SHE CHANGS DADS BAGS OUT.I TRY TO DO WHAT I CAN BUT WORKING IS HARD IF FEEL BAD NOT BEENING ABLE TO HELP OUT MORE.BOB LOOSING U AND TERRY NOW MAYBE DAD THESE 2 YEARS HAVE BEEN HARD.BOB I LOVE N MISS YOU GUYS    

HI BOB,IM JUST SEATING HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND HOW MUCH FUN WE USE TO HAVE TOGETHER.FOUR WHEELING,WORKING THE JAIL VAN,GOING TO PAYSON RODEO,TAKING DAY TRIPS.YOU N TERRI COMING UP TO PRESCOTT SPEEDING  THE WEEK END,BOB WE DID SO MUCH TOGETHER AND NOT HAVING YOU AROUND IS HARD.YOU COMING OVER AND RIDING HORSES WITH ME IN QUEEN CREEK.EVERY TIME I SEE A MARICOPA COUNTY DEPUTY I THANK ABOUT US WORKING,R YOU AND BUCK TELLING JOKES.IT JUST IS'NT THE SAME YOU NOT BEING HERE.REMMBER THE TIME WE WENT BEHIDE UR HOUSE AND LEHI U LET ME DRIVE UR TRUCK AND U THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO RECK IT, I WENT FLYING OVER A HILL WENT AIR BORN AND THE NEXT WEEK I HAD MICHAEL,AND WHEN MIKE N I WHERE DATING WE ALL WENT BEHIDE THE HOUSE ON BASELINE AND MIKE GOT HIS GTO STUCK WE JUST LAUGHED AT HIM.U N MIKE GLEN GIVING BEER TO MY HORSE,THOSE WER THE DAYS.I LOVE U N MISS U VERY MUCH

Hi Bob,

 

Well as usual Im wishing you a happy belated birthday. I try to not think about when your birthday is, because all that brings to my mind is you. All those birthdays you had and when never once came by to say happy birthday or to give you a hug. It is easy to see where I went wrong so many years ago, but like I have said on Terry's web page, we never thought that we would not have time to make up for lost times, you would always been there in Mesa, that we would have time to do that later. Time was not on our side. I hope when and if there is another death that all of us have told who ever it is that they meant a lot to us and that we love them, because after that person is gone there will be no more time to say that, the living will have to deal with the choices they made. I know that if I had it all to do over I would of done more to see my big brother and to ask his advice. I know you joked a lot, but I also know you were serious. I miss you, wish you were here for Thanksgiving and Christmas. You and Terry were greatly missed. Karen gave us a sticker to put on our windshilds, the dates you and Terry were borned and the dates you both left us. I have not put it on mine yet, because once I do I feel like it has been finalized. As long as I don't have the daily reminder of you or Terry or as long as I dont see the date you two left us it is like your still here. So putting it on my windshild would only let me knwo that you two are gone, no more chances to wish you a Merry Christmas or a Happy Birthday. This emptyness I feel since you two left is unbearable sometimes, but I try to not think about all those years that we never spent with you. I know you can't hear these words or see them, but I wish these words are the ones I could tell you before you left. There was so many things I wanted to say before I left after mom and I would come and see you, or like when you came over to the house. But I choose to not realize that you were going and I choose to not tell you, thinking that when you were gone it would not matter to me, but it does. I hope you knew how very much I loved you, and looked up to you. I will never be able to tell you that, but I did. There was so much more to say, but it is too late.

 

Well Bob it is late and Ive got to go to bed. Again I wish you a happy belated birthday. Take care of us from where you are at.

 

Love your little sister

Trina

 

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER,IT DONT SEEM RIGHT YOU NOT BEING HERE FOR ARE BIRTHDAYS.TODAY HAS BEEN HARD FOR ME YOU NOT BEONG HERE CALLING ME ASKING WHAT DID U GET ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY,AND ME TELLING U,YOU GOT ME WHAT DID U GET ME FOR MINE.BOB I HAVE SO MANT THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT BUT I CANT.I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE YOU R GONE I FIND MTSELF PICKING THE PHONE UP WHATING TO CALL YOU I STILL HAVE YOU IN MY PHONE I JUST CANT TAKE UR NAME OUT.CHRISTMAS AND BIRTHDAYS JUST ARENT THE SAME WE ALWAYS HAD A CLOSE TIE.I GUESS BECAUES R BIRTHDAYS BEING ON THE SAME DAY.

 

I LOVE YOU BOB

well here another holiday without you are terry, like karen said all we can do is write on this web page to tell the both of you i love you both and wished there coulf of been  more years with family . i guess it still seems unreal thay god took you both mom needed one of you... i wished you could of seen mom and terrys last wak on the day we had too finally leave you, and we left without you and then you were there alone. we cpould not touch you no longer are even  hold you no more. just you making that trip without you both. terry walked with mom that day with pride like i am proud this is my mother, none of us not knowing that  would be our last chace to hold are tell terry we loved him also. i didn;t even take the time too hug him are to tell i loved him, and now its too late. i was away from the family it seems more than i was wiyh you all'  thays something i can nwver fix, just i try too live with  our choices. well i am starting too cry now so i guess i need too sign and thank god that we had a brother like you and terry. two great men you both were. its just you two left at a young age. so ill say goodnihht now    i love you bob, ill write more later.

                                                                                             love you linda

WELL BOB U R MISSED,ITS GOING ON ARE 2ND BIRTHDAY YEAR WITH OUT U,AND IT IS JUST HAS HARD THIS TIME AROUND AS THE FIRST ONE.BOB I JUST HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME WITH OUT U I WANT TO CALL YOU SO BAD AND TALK TO BUT  I CANT BECAUSE YOUR NOT THERE.ALL I CAN DO IS GET ON THIS WEB PAGW AND WRITE DOWN HOW I FEEL,I FEEL SAD,I FEEL BAD FOR NOT SPENDING MORE TIME WITH YOU KNOWING HOW SICK YOU WHERE.NOW I CAN'T LIKE THE SONG SAY'S THE BAD NEWS IS YOUR GONE.ITS JUST NOT RIGHT YOU AND TERRY BEING TAKEN FROM US LIKE THAT.I SEAT HERE N LISTEN TO ALL THESE SONGS THAY R ALL SO SAD.BOB I WILL NEVER FOR GET THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU,CARL AND I CAME OVER ON JUNE 12TH  2008 AND YOU TOLD CARL AND I WHEN WE GOT BACK FROM ARE CURISE WE WILL HAVE STEAK.AND THAY AT 230 AM JUNE 22ND I GOT THAT CALL YOU WER GONE,BOB I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT STAYING HERE WITH YOU SPENDING ALL THE TIME I COULD.IM SO SORRY BOB.I LOVE YOU 

HI BOB,I MISS U VERY MUCH.CARL N I WENT OUT TO SEE YOU N TERRY ON CHRISTMAS DAY WE TALKED ALITTLE BIT ABOUT YOU AND TERRY.VERY ONE CAME OVER FOR CHRISTMAS BUT WE WHERE MISSING A FEW PEOPLE U N TERRY AND ALL UR FAMILY.I SENT TERRI A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND SHE SENT ONE BACK.BOB NEXT MONTH IS GOING TO BE HARD NOT HEARING UR VOICE ASKING ME WHAT I GOT U FOR UR BRITHDAY.I STILL FIND MYSELF CRYING ABOUT THE LOSE OF YOU AND TERRY EVEN THOUGH I DID'NT SEE U GUYS MUCH IT WAS NICE TO KNOW I COULD STOP BY N SEE YOU IF I WANTED  TO.BOB IM  SORRY FOR NOT GIVING YOU THE MONEY  U ASK FOR.I WILL NEVER KNOW,I DONT KNOW IF I WILL EVER GET OVER THAT.

 

MERRY CHRISTMAS MY BROTHER.    

HEY BOB WE JUST HAD ANOTHER CHRISTMAS AT KARENS BUT YOU AND TERRY WERE NOT THERE. I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU TWO ALL DAY. YOU BOTH ARE MISSED SO MUCH....WISH WE ALL COULD OF HAD A LOT OF HOLIDAYS TOGETHER, BUT I GUESS I CACNNOT THINK ABOUT THE PAST. IT IS JUST WE ALL LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND MOM MISSES YOU BOTH SO BAD TEARS COME TOO HER EYES. I PUT SOME ANGELS UP FOR YOU BOTH ON YOUR GRAVE, I JUST HAVE A HARD TIME GOING OUT THERE. I LOVE YU BOTH SO MUCH AND MISS YOU BOTH SO MCH. THERE IS SUCH A VOID INSIDE MY HEART, LIKE AND EMPTINESS I CANNOT FILL. YOU TWO TAKE CARE AND I KNOW YOUR KIDS MISSED YOU BOTH SO MUCH. ITS LATE AND I NEED TOO GO.  SOMEDAY I WILL SEE YOU.

 

                                                  LOVE LINDA

WELL BOB,HERE I AM.THINKING ABOUT YOU AND TERRY.CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HERE AND YOU'RE NOT.R BIRTHDAYS R JUST AROUND THE CORNOR AND IM NOT GOING TO GET THAT PHONE CALL FROM YOU,ASKING WHAT DID U GET ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY.O BOB IF YOU ONLY NEW HOW MUCH I HURT AND MISS YOU.THIER IS NOT A DAY GOES BY I DONY THINK OF YOU ARE TERRY.I DRIVE BY YOU TWO EVERY DAY IM WORKING AND LOOK OVER AND SAY HI MY BROTHERS I LOVE YOU BOTH.I WENT TO UR GRANDSONS B-DAY.I GOT TO SEE EVERY ONE BUT YOU,IT WAS GOOD SEEING THEM ALL BUT IT SURE WAS SAD NOT SEEING YOU.BOB I LOVE YOU AND YOU TAKE CARE OF US DOWN HERE.    

Hello Bob,

It is almost 4:30 in the morning and once again I'm up. I try to keep myself busy, to stay off of here. I try to stay away from Mesa also, just to keep from going to the last place I saw you. But here lately my mind can't help but think about you and Terry. I miss you and wish the two of you could be here with us. To celebrate Christmas with. I go to mom's and dad's and when I drive off their lot all I want to do is stop by and see how things are going with you, but then I remember that your not there any longer and of course that makes me sad. Sometimes I'm sad, but I don't have any more tears left to cry. Then there is time like tonight when I can't seem to stop. I hate days like this. I wish God could of kept you here with us a little longer. But I know things are suppose to get better with time, they say time heals all wounds, but time has not healed this wound, this lost that I have over you and Terry. And there is no words that anyone can express or say to me that makes them better. Because after they have been said the fact is still there, you are gone. I can't turn to you any more and ask your advice, hear your crazy jokes, see you smile, or hear your voice. I won't hear those stories ever again of the days you were growing up, those are memories, but do they really take the place of you. I can't hear the memories, I can only think about them. I can't give you a hug with a memory, and there are no more memories to ever make again, life just stopped like the memories they stopped when you were taken from us. Bob I no longer feel grief because I really never talked to you that much. But what I do have is a wounded heart that will never forget you, and a desire to see you, tell you one last time that I love you. I can write all I want on this web page those words, but you will never hear them and nor will I have the chance to tell them to you face to face again. You were loved so very much, I just don't understand why you were taken so soon. It seems like yesterday that I was hearing you tell me how stupid and crazy I was to continue to live with Gary, that you knew his type and he was not a good type and if he ever did anything to me he would be answering to you. Now your not here and I feel we have all been robbed of you. Bob you will always be loved and missed. I can't wait until I get to see you again, just so I can give you one more hug and let you know how very much you have been missed. You were the best Bob, I know you had your faults, we all do but I would rather put up with those then have you gone from us. Please take care of us down here, keep your arms around your family, remind us that you are there with us daily, that you are only a thought away from us. Until next time Bob, you are in my thoughts and you lay upon my heart everyday.

Your sister

Trina

Hi Baby, I was reading some of the things family was writing and i just sit here and cry because I know they hurt just as much as I do.  I think about you every day and miss you so very much.  Sunday was Garrett's 3rd birthday party and all I could do was think about how much you loved that little boy and wish you could have been there to spend it with him.  Pricilla's birthday was last friday and she really misses you.  She talks about you all the time and wishes you were here so she could see you.  The kids are doing good they miss and love you so very much.  I will go for now, I love and miss you always.  XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

THEY HAD YOUR DRANDSONS BIRTHDAY TODAY. HE PROBABLY MISSES YOIU VERY MUCH.  HERE COMEA MORE HOLIDAYS WITHOUT YOU AND TERRY... WE WILL MISS YOU VERY MUCH, I YHINK OF YOU TWO EACH DAY AND STILL CANNOT UNDERSTAND, WHY BOTH OF YOU ARE GONE, WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO TWO GOOD MEN. IT JUST CUTS MY HEART LIKE A KNIFE IN MY HEART/ COME ON YJE REST OF YOU WRITE SOMETHIMHG TOO YOUR BROTHERS. THEY WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEART. AND WILL ALWAYS HAVE OUR LOVE.. I LOVE YOU MY DEARESET GROTHER. ANF MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH

 

 

                                 LOVE YOU LINDA

well bob here i am again, i wrote too terry and now to you. i look back when we were kids and some of the funny things you would do and pull on people. i just wished we could of had longer for som more of those moments. but you and terry were both taken from us a way too soon.... i still cannot understand why god would tke the both of you. mom needed one of you here. she lost so much when she lost the both of you. i just wished she could of had one of you. but so much pain she feels and all of us feel. well goodnight we love and miss you here. i look at the stars and say there are my brothers looking down.  you both keep shinning up there.  love you. sweet greams

                                                                                          love you linda

WELL BOBBY IT HAS BEEN A WHILE. YOU KNOW KAREN IS RIGHT, IT DOES,NT GET BETTER ARE EASIER. IT STILL HURTS THE SAME AS OT HAPPENED YESTURDAY. ME AND KAREN ESPECIALLY KAREN WE JUST CRY IN EACH OTHERS ARM.... WE BOTH HURT AND WISHED THERE COULD OF BEEN SOMETHING WE COULD OF DONE. BUT WHAT. GOD WANTED YOU AND TERRY BOTH. BUT I TELL GOD SO MANY HERE NEEDED THE BOTH OF YOU ALS. I WISHED I COULD BE HAPPY BUT WE NOW HAVE TWO BROTHERS WHO WERE NEED SO MUCH. I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY THE BOTH OF YOU DOUBLE ALL THR HURT, HE COULD OF TAKEN ME ARE SOME OF THESE OUT HERE WHO DON"T CARE ABOUT NOTHING BUT CAUSING HATE AND TROUBLE NOT THE BOTH OF MY BROTHERS., WELL BOB YOU BOTH ARE DEEP WITHIN MY HEART TON9GHT, THE PAIN HURTS I"LL REMEMBER YOU BOTH UNTIL I SEE YOU BOTH AGAIN. I LOVE YOU BOB/ I MISS YOU THERES SO M,UCH TIME I NEVER SPENT IN YOU ARE TERRYS LIFE. I"LL TALK TOO YOU AGAIN YOU LOOK DOWN ON US DOWN HERE IF YOU CAN.

                                                      LOVE YOUR OLDEST SISTER LINDA