Terri |
trina |
Good morning Bob,
I was hoping to get out there yesterday, but things don't seem to be working out as well as I has hoped. Hopefully today, because you know I can not afford another week like the one I had a little over a week ago. Karen and I just got off the phone, it is always nice talking to her. It seems like a long time since her and I have talked, but after losing you and Terry, I don't think I will ever get enough of talking to my family, because we never know when the next one will leave us. And I just want to make time for my friends and family now, while there is time to do that. That was something I never took the time to do while u and Terry where still here. unfortunelly I learned that lesson a little to late, to late to still be able to spend time with u and Terry. I love u and miss u more then words can ever say.
Your little sister,
Trina
LINDA |
JOY
BEST MAN WORTH WHILE IS THE ONE WHO WILL SMILE.WHEN EVERYTHING GOES WRONG. FOR THE TEST OF THE HEART IS TROUVLE AND ALWAYS COMES WITH THE YEARS... AND THE SMILE THAT IS WORTH THE PRAISES, IN HIS HEART IS THE SMILE. THAT SHINES THRU THE TEARS.
MONEY AND TIME ARE THE HEAVIEST BURDENS OF LIFE AND THE UNHAPPINESS OF ALL MAN FAILS ARE THOSE WHO HAVE MORE OF EITHER THAN THEY KNOW HOW TOO USE.
SOME CAUSE HAPPINESS WHEREVER THEY GO. AND SOME WHENEVER THEY THEY GO.
I WANT A SOUL SO FULL OF JOY, LIFES WITHERING STORMS CANNOT DESTORY. PEOPLE ARE LONELY BECAUSE THEY BUILD WALLS INSTEAD OF BRIDGES...
LET US REALIZE THAT WHAT HAPPENS AROUBD US IS LARGELY OUTSIDE OUR CONTROL.BUT THE WAY WE CHOOSE TO REACT TO IT AND CONTROL IT INSIDE HAS A LOT TO DO WITH THE OUT COME.
LAUGH A LITTLE, SING A LITTLE, NEVER FROWN. BECAUSE EVERY CLOUD HAS SILVER LININGS BUT IT IS UP TOO YOU.MAY YOU LIVE ALL THE DAYS OF YOUR LIFE LIKE OUR BROTHER WOULD WANT US TOO. A SMILE IS A CHEER, TO YOU AND ME IT COST NOTHING. ITS GIVEN TO COMFORT THR WEARY,THE SADNESS COMFORT THOSE WHO ARE IN TROUBLE EVEN IF THEY ARE GOOD ARE BAD...
OUR BROTHERS CHEERED UP A FEW PEOPLE, MADE THOSE AROUND THEM LAUGH,THERE IS NOTHING MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN A RAINBOW BUT IT TAKES MORE THAN SUNSHINE AND RAIN TOO MAKE A RAINBOW. AND THATS WHAT OUR BROTHERS DID IN THEIR LIFES WAS BRING BOTH. IT IS NOW THE TEARS THAT SADDEN US, AND NOW THEY WOULD WANT THE SUNSHINE SO WE ALL COULD SEE THEM IN THAT RAINBOW...
LOVE YOU BOTH LINDA
karen |
hey bob just seting here thinking about you and terry,i was down but i just couldnt come in see you and terry i drove by a couple of times but i just couldnt do it if i did it would show me you both are really gone and i dont what to belive that i want you guys back.
bob i miss you and terry i just cant let you guys go i tell myself i need to call bob its been a while sence i have talked to you so i pick up the phone and i start to dial and they i stop and start crying
bob the hardest day is ate to come jan 18th that will be the hardest day for me
i met a lady tonite that lost her husband 5 mo ago to kinnedy feller we talked about him and you n terry and how hard it is not having you all around.
i remember you telling my you where going to come up and go horse back riding with me you never came bob i hear ronny has a picture of you in blue shorts he said he would get it to me i have to see that
trina |
Good morning Bob,
Here's a good one for you. Thought you and Terri would get a good laugh at it. This morning Cory was going out to wait for the bus, and when he walked outside and said that he smelled bacon. Grandma Elaine asked him if he did and he said yeah, he said that God was making bacon for Uncle Bob and Uncle Terry. I hope the two of u enjoyed your bacon this morning. Cory has your quick witBob. Some of the things he says r some of the things u would say. He has always been that way, and that is before he even meet you. So every day I get to live with someone who has your quick wit and that i am glad of. I miss you and wish u were here, but if I can't have that craziness that you had at least I can expercience it through my son. I still can't believe that you are not around anymore. It seems like yesterday that I was coming over to u and Terri's either sitting there talking to her, or baby sitting for the two of u. those were the days, the days when you were still here, before we lost u, when we all thought we would have u and Terry forever. I wish it were not true that you are gone, I wish that I would wake up from this nightmare that i am but I know that the only way I am ever going to see u again is by dieing, and I plan on being around alittle longer, if nothing else to irratate ur wife. I have been slacking off for awhile, I promised u I would call her everyday and ask her what she was doing, but I don't like bothering her at work, and u know how it goes, everytime I think about calling her it is late, or she is at work. When Karen was down here I did not get to see much of Karen much less go out and visit with Terri. Bob I'm glad you had Terri that last year of ur life, she has been good for u. And I know u would be proud of the way she is handling things. I know there r going to be many first for her this year, but u continue to stay with her up there and her friends and family down here will try to help her all we can down here. I know we can not make up for the loss of u, noone can ever beat having the real you, but we can at least be there for her if and when she asks for it. Well we all miss u down here, and we all need for u and Terri to keep an eye on us from where the two of u are at. You two were good men and the world is losing out on knowing u. Wish I could meet someone like my two hero's. I will love u forever and I will miss u more then words can say.
Your little sister,
Trina
trina |
Well it has been 3 months without you here. And I think we all miss you more as the days go on. I wish you were here with us, but I would not wish for you to be in pain, if you could be here, the Bob that we all knew and came to love we all could handle that. I miss your smile more then anything. I miss having you here to watch over me and the boys, just knowing that I had a big brother around who watched out for my well being, even when I did not know you were there, was a big comfort. Now you watching over from Heaven, its a comfort but its not the same here without you. I can't just call on you and you come rushing over to my defense. I just can't get over the fact that you are not right down the street from me, that when I talk to mom I no longer am able to ask her how is Bob, or those last few months before you left going and seeing you, making you your steak and chili. There is so much that I wanted to tell you, about what has been going on in my life these last couple of years, or how much I love you, or that I am glad that you were my brother, all of those I wish I could of, now it is to late, and I don't know why I took so long in telling you all of this. I know what it means to feel like you have a hole in your heart, because right now I do. Even thought we were not in touch these last years of your life it still hurts not being able to tell you all of those things. every morning when I wake up I still see you in your eternal resting place, your hands folded over one another, I see you in your bed before they took you away and I see that smile on your face. I don't know why but that's how I start each morning waking up to you and your face. As I go on throughout the day I see you growing up, I see you when I go to bed out fishing and doing the things you would enjoy. Well I love you and I miss you, I can't wait until we all get to where u are at so when can once again hold on to you for dear life, my thoughts will always be on you, I will never let your memory die, and please take care of us from where you are.
Your little sister,
Trina
Terri |
trina |
Bob,
I thought I would write a few lines to let you know that I love u and I miss u. I came out to visit with u and Terry today. Tomorrow will be 3 months since you left us. It seems like yesterday to me, the pain is still as great today as it was 3 months ago. Your memory is still as alive today as it was then, some memories are clearer then others, just like you were here and it was happening all over again, others come to mind like a flicker. But all of them are just as important to me, from the least to the greatest. When you and Terry left the world lost two great men. I'm sure ur family feels the loss most of all. I still have a hard time understanding why you got cancer in the first place, why there was not something more that could of been done, alot of why's, but no answers. So many of us needs to still have you here, but yet we all know that is not possable. I wish u were still here so we could make more memories together. Like Terry i feel that we have been robbed. Cancer is like that, it sneaks up on you like a thief, and then it robs those closes to the victim blind. the only difference here is that we can't even make out a police report on what was taken from us, we will never get back the life that we so dearly love and miss. I still think sometimes that I am going to hear ur voice and turn around and see you there. When i wake up in the morning I keep thinking I will call Teri and she will give me some good news that this is all a dream, but I know that if I do call I'm not going to hear those words, that I will never hear your crazy antics again, i will never see you agiain. And I guess that is one fo the reasons I stopped calling, because I then have to think of all the wasted years I had not coming and seeing you. and there were way to many to mention. I feel I cheated myself out of the relationship that I could of had with you. And I need that relationship more then I thought I would ever know. I miss not hearing you lecture me on Marc, and I miss the days when I would come over and babysit the kids. I remember when Ryan was born, u and Lori had no name for him. We all sat around the table trying to think of a name for him. You wanted Festus and some other wierd names, Lori kept saying no, or Lori would come up with some strange name you did not like and finally I said what about Ryan. I was only 8 years old, no older then Cory, but finally someone had came up with a name you could agree upon. I think we sat around the table half a nite. But at least the poor boy got a well deserving name in the long run. Besides I think if you would of named him Festus he would of been cursing you for the rest of your life down here and the one you have up in Heaven. Well Bob, I guess I will close with that note, and I love you, miss you more then words can say, Ifeel like there is a big hole in my heart where you should be. I will forever wish you here and until we meet again, keep an eye on your family down here and know we all hold a specail place for you in our hearts.
Love you,
your little sister Trina
trina |
Bob,
This has been the roughest week I have had to go through since u and Terry leaving. First and foremost I wish u were around to teach Gary what it is to be a father. Because u took care of ur children no matter what. We all know that u tried ur best. And that is why ur children love and miss u so very much. It times like these that I wished I would of listen to u about Gary and I wished I would of let u kick his ass, once and for all. At least if for nothing else he would of not been putting his kids through the hell he is. I sit here everyday and look at ur pix. and I start crying. I miss u more then words can ever say. And after the week I have gone through it makes me miss u even more. I know this much I will never again miss not coming out and seeing the two of u boys again. I swear u guys are getting revenge on me. And I should know that I get a double dose of it. I pray that u help me have a better week this week and that u keep an eye out for me, kinda cushion the blows u know. Karen is down here for the week, we went out for breakfast this morning. It was nice, ur name was not brought up. But last night when I was over at mom's I was eating some carrots and I remember when u had carrots u always would eat the carrots like u were a rabbit. U know with ur nose wiggleing back and forth and up and down. We all had a laugh about that. I tell u its the little things that bring back the memories of u and then I get on a row with missing u. I wish I could have that one last time of seeing u eat a carrot. Well u take care of ur family down here and every once awhile I hope u let us know u r still around by giving us hope in the things we see or hear. Just know that u are greatly missed and loved here, we all can't wait until we can see the two of u again.
Love always and forever,
trina
Terri |
trina |
Hello Bob,
Where r u at when I need my FRIEND? I guess ur busy four wheeling and fishing in Heaven, or maybe ur trying to keep God in line. Who knows? Today I was thinking about u and remembering old times. Memories are not memories unless u have that person around to recollect all of those old times with. This has been an emotional week for me, all the memories of u and Terry seem to have come back all in one week. And every thing and everyone I see seems to remind me of the two of u. I think one of the reasons I have had a hard time this week is because I never got the chance to come and see the two of u this week. I'm not making this mistake again. Nothing will ever stop me from seeing the two of u again, it has thrown me so off schedule. Maybe tomorrow I will beable to come out and visit the two of u, and at least save the last two days of this week. I guess it has to do with the two of you getting revenge out on me. And it does not help that I did not get to say goodbye to Terry. But what does one do? I'm just thankful that I got that chance to say goodbye to u, and also knowing that Terri was there by your side thoughout it all helps. u know how I am about someone dying alone. And that is what upsets me the most. Keep an eye out for all of us Brother, and have a good nite, I love u and miss u even more then words can say.
Your little sister,
Trina
KAREN |
HI BRO I WAS LOOKING AT THE PICTURE THAT TERRI PUT UP OF YOU IN UR UNIFORM SHIRT AND IT BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES OF YOU AND I WORKING TOGETHER WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND ALL THE JOKES YOU AND BUCK USE TO TELL BOB I MISS THAT US TALKING ABOUT WHEN WE WORKED THE JAIL VAN THE SONGS YOU WOULD SING WHILE WE WERE WORKING REMEMBER THE SONG YOU AND KEITH USE TO SING YOU CAN HAVE HER I DONT WANT HER AND THE TIME A MESA POLICE OFFICER STOPPED YOU AND ASK WHAT YOU WERE DOING AND YOU ASK HIM THAT HE TOLD U WORKING AND U SAID THATS WHAT IM DOING WORKING I HURT NOT SEEING YOU NOT HEARING UR VOICE ON THE PHONE ASKING IF I BOUGHT CARL A BOAT OR WHERES MY STEAK YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE COMING DOWN TO MAKE ME A STEAK I MISS THAT I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU AND TERRY EVERY DAY I CRY ALL THE TIME MY HEART IS EMPTY IT FEELS LIKE A BIG HOLE IS GONE FROM IT I HAVE SO MANY MEMORIES BUT I WOULD TRADE ALL THOSE MEMORIES TO HAVE YOU BACK WITH US.
LOVE ALWAYS KAREN
trina |
Hey Bob,
I was instructed by your wife and best friend, Terri, that I needed to stop writing books when I wrote to u. But I would not be me if I did not write a book now would I. I will try my hardest to keep this short and to the point. I miss u. Today while I was stopped at a light I looked to my right side, thinking about u and Terry, there is not a day or a moment that I don't think of the two of u, and there was a man that looked just like u, in the drivers seat. He was in a White Chevy, and that made me think about the last time u were here. U were saying that u wanted ur new truck before u left us, I think u have ur new truck now. Because I was shocked to see someone who looked like u and as they drove away I noticed the license plate said ROBERT. A smile came to my face just knowing that u got the truck u so much wanted. I know u are in Heaven 4-wheeling right now. I can hardly wait to get into Heaven's gates and take a ride with u.
Love u and miss u more then words can say.
ur little sister Trina
LIDA |
BOBBY,
WRiTING TO SAY GOOD-NIGHT. I HAVE NOT WROTE U IN A WHILE, SO I FELT I SHOULD LET YOU KNOW I LOVE AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY. I CRY A LOT OF TEARS EVERYTIME I WRITE TO YOU AND TERRY, SOMETIMES I CAN NOT EVEN GET THE WHOLE THING WRITTEN BECAUSE OF THE TEARS. RANDY WILL COME IN HERE AND MAKE ME GET AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER, WHEN HE SEES I AM REALLY HURTING AND CAN NOT SEEM TO STOP FOR A WHILE I LOVE YOU AND TERRY AND REALLY WISHED THERE HAD BEEN MORE TIMES TO SHOW YOU BOTH I JUST PRAY THAT GOD LETS YOU BOTH KNOW. REST PEACEFULLY BOTH OF YOU AND KEEP ONE EYE OPEN UPON YOUR WHOLE FAMILY...
LOVE , GOD BLESS YOU ARE A GREAT AND WERE A GREAT MAN
LOVE YOUR BIG SISTER LINDA
karen |
hi bob just sitting here looking at your pictures and reading the stories and crying it is so sad knowing you are gone from us, i miss you so much all i do is think about u and terry some times i dont think carl understands how i feel and how much i hurt not having you and terry around or not being with my family i miss that i miss not seeing you over at mom and dads or at your house when i go see terri i wish i could go see you more and i wish i lived back down in mesa so i could see every one else i know you always told me i was crazy for wanting to move back but i feel i need to live is to sort look what happen you left us and then terry.all i can think about is u and terry and family, i carry a picture of you and terry with me all the time and i always look at it wishing you both where here with all of us again
i love you miss u little sister
Dear Husband In Heaven |
I sit here and ponder how very much
I'd like to talk with you today
There are so many things
That we didn't get to say.
I know how much you care for me
And how much I care for you,
And each time that I think of you
I know you'll miss me too.
An angel came and took you by the hand, and said
Your place was ready in Heaven, far above . . .
And you had to leave behind all those you dearly loved
You had so much to live for, you had so much to do . . .
It still seems impossible that God was taking you.
And though your life on earth is past, in Heaven it starts anew
You'll live for all eternity, just as God has promised you.
And though you've walked through Heaven's gate
We are never far apart
For every time I think of you,
You're right here, deep with-in my heart.
Our Lives |
In Memory |
I don't know how to feel
it's all locked up inside,
the emptyness is waking
the tears are running dry.
You're the one who held me
gave comfort when things went wrong,
what do i do without you
I feel my faith is gone.
My heart just doesn't realize
that you are really gone.
A loss that came so suddenly
but will last my whole life long.
Our time just meant so much to me
I know it always will
the memories locked inside of me
forever to hold on too
You told me that we'd be
together forever more
part of each others lives
but now the door is closed.
Never to be opened
kept locked on both sides now
Although you may have gone away
Your spirit will forever stay
Terri |
trina |
HI Bob,
I'm just sitting here,thinking about u and Terry. I know there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of one of u, or both of u. Yesterday I was at mom's and dad's and mom was saying how much she missed having the two of u around. Dad was saying that he had told Terri he would come over and see her, but how hard it is to go and know that u are not there. I know I should go and drop in on Terri more, but I have a hard time knowing that Crystil nor Terri will be going into the bedroom to get u. i sit and look at ur pix. but I don't recognize the "Bob" that is there. They r of ur younger days when I don't remember u because I was to young, or they were when u got diagnoised with cancer and I never saw u in the beginning. The of u with cancer brings tears to my eyes. I remember telling all my friends about u when describing my brothers or sister, I would always tell them that one of my brothers u never know what he is thinking about until it is to late, then u know when u have upset him because he will let u have it, it will take alot for him to blow, but watch out when he does. I miss the days when u would come over to mom's for potoetoes and gravy. At one time when u and Terri got back togather i asked mom if she had seen u and if u were eating, we had just found out about the cancer, u had just started chemo, she said u were always over eating potatoes and gravy. I had to laugh because ever since i could remember that was always ur fave. Strange how one thinks about the small things when the other is not around. I remember alot when I am around someone who reminds me of u. And trust me I see u in alot of people everyday. Bob I love u and miss u. I wish that the love ur family and friends have for u would be enough for God to bring u back to us. If not forever, for just alittle time. Terri, would just be overjoyed, Karen would beable to tell u goodbye, I would beable to hug u one last time, tell u that I love u,make one more memory, Linda would beable to give u one more last cherry cobbler, and mom and dad would be able to hug their son one last time, and make sure ur soul is right with God, ur friends would do with u one last time the things u did with them. But I know that is not going to happen, but I wish things were like that. I miss all ur silly stories u said. I remember all the things u told me as I was growing up, like when I had that crush on Mark, or what u would say about Gary. I always figured u did not have a clue what u were saying but I know now u did, and u were right about evrything. I miss u bunches and bunches forever in my heart and mind, your little sister trina