Robert Tipton

Hello Bob,

I came out to see you this last Sunday. Your still sitting there high on your throne. Dad and I were talking today and I knew he feels sorry for saying the things he said to you and Terry over the years, calling you names. Him and I hardly ever talk about you and Terry, I guess that's because he knows that he will feel guilty and have to admit the things that he did wrong to you two, but you know how dad is, he is just dad. We went to Cilla's bday today. She sure has grown since the first time I saw her. Someday she will be the same age as your boys. I wish you were there. It's these family get togathers that I miss you most, and I wish that when you were around I would of spent time doing family things. But I try not to look back on the pass, moving forward is the best bet. I know also that you would not want all of us here on earth wishing for something that is impossable to have, so that is how I handle the death of you and Terry. But I still think of the two of you and I still wish the two of you were here. That will never change. I just dont keep beating myself up for not being involved with your life as much as I should of been. At first I did but I know that I will never lose what I had with you. I also know that you never held a grudge and that you loved me as much as you always had, no matter what I did or rather i came to visit you or talk to you.  And I know that if you were still here that would never change between the two of us. I do regret not telling you how much I loved you and not letting you know that I was glad that you were there to watch over me and the boys, because I know that you did watch out for us and I know that if I ever needed anything you would be there to help me out, that was the way you were. I do wish that I would of told you all of these things before you pasted, but I was alittle to late. Karen and Carl are moving back down to the valley. Karen needs to be closer to her family, and I guess I can understand that. Because we never know what tomorrow is going to hold for us, or who is going to be the next one called up home to Heaven. Well Bob I love you and miss you , I will see you next Thursday. It will be Thanksgiving here and Im planning on coming out to see you and Terry, I dont know if Im going to come on Sunday or not, I have an oral report to do in english on Monday. You and Terry please give me the strength to be up in front of the class room and Ineed the two of you to be there standing on both sides of me, that way if I fall down the two of you can stand me back up. You know how I feel about talking in the front of crowds. Well Ishall talk to you later big brother and remember I love you with all my heart and I miss you with all that is me.

Trina

Good morning Bob,

I have not been out there to see you and Terry for about a month.  It seems like a long time, I have just been busy with school and with Cody.  I wish you were here along with Terry to help that boy understand that what he is doing is hurting himself and everyone that is around him.  I know some of the things he is pulling is some of the things you would more then likly pull.  But I never did or thought about doing some of the things that kid does.  He has been suspended from school for telling the teacher to F off. He took three calcaltors the other day to sell for profit. He has not been turningin homework, sniffing glue, lies, he says he is going to kill us, burn the house down.  Where all of this anger has come from no one knows, I just know I wish he would stop and live a normal life.  I have tried everything, now they are talking about putting him in a group home, and I dont know if I should be happy, or upset.  I know I want him to get the help he needs, but still he is young and I will miss him.  I dont know I wish you and Terry would help me see what it is I'm to do about him.  I blame this on Gary, he has never been the type of man to except resposability of any kind.  I guess if I would of let the two of you go and talk to him maybe he would of changed enough to understand how important it is for a father to be involved at least a little bit.  I miss you and Terry, I wish I could have u and him down here.  But I also know God needed you more and that we all should just walk on, but that is hard to do.  I never got the chance to tell you how grateful I was to you for protecting my ass.  It meant and still does mean a lot to me.  Now I have a guarden angel protecting me. thanks for being my brother and i miss you more then you will ever know.  Keep an eye out for us from where you are at, and stay close to Terri and the kids during these holidays, they need to feel that closeness.  I know it will be very hard for them this first year.  Well I will be coming out soon to visit the two of you hopefully this Sunday, I am planning on going to Garrets bday party.  I know you would of wanted to be here for that.  Your little sister Trina

BOB THIS IS FOR YOU I THINK ABOUT ALL THE TIMES WE WENT FOUR WHEELING. YOU AND TERRY  TAKE CARE OF US DOWN HERE AND HELP US MAKE IT THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS. IT WILL BE HARD FOR EVERY ONE  MOST OF ALL TERRI AND LAURE  AND THE KIDS.THEY SPENT THE HOLIDAYS WITH YOU GUYS. 

 

 

 

LOVE YOU'RE LITTLE SISTER

Hi baby, I haven't been on here in a while because it seems like i say the same thing over and over.  I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and miss you.  No matter what happens in the future you will always be the love of my life and you will always be in my heart.  XOXOXOXOXOXO

HI BOB, I WAS READING ALL THE MEMORIES THAT EVERYONE HAS WORTE. BOB I MISS YOU AND TERRY IT JUST DOE'SNT SEEM REAL I STILL PICK THE PHONE UP TO CALL YOU AND SEE WANT YOURE UP TO THEY I REMEMBER YOU ARE GONE. BOB I DONT THINK I WILL EVER GET OVER YOU BEING GONE THAT WAS'NT SUPOST TO HAPPEN YOU WHERE SUPOST TO BE OK.I WAS DOWN OVER THE WEEK END IN DROVE BY WANTING TO STOP BUT I JUST COULDNT BRING MY SELF TO STOP ITS SO HARD.CARL AND I ARE GOING TO MOVE BACK I NEED TO FOR THE FAMILY MOM AND DAD NEED ME AND I NEED THEM WE MADE A OFFER ON A HOUSE OUT BY MICHAEL AND BRENDS OCTILLO AND IRONWOOD.I HOPE WE GET IT BUT YOU NEVER KNOW CARL IS GOING TO STAY UP NORTH TILL ARE HOUSE SELLS AND THEY HE IS GOING TO APPLY FOR PANEL COUNTY AS A  DEPUTY SHERIFF BOB YOU AND TERRY HELP THAT THINGS GO OK FOR CARL AND I LOVE YOU       

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ELL BOB I LIKE LOKING AT THIS PICTURE WE ALL MISS YOU BOTH SOOO VERY MUCH. STILL I AM NOT BELEIVING THE BOTH OF YOU ASRE GONE... SO MANY DAYS AND YEARS LOST AND I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO MAKE UP FOR THEM. ALL I DO IS TRY AND LIVE WITH THE DECISIONS I MADE WAY BACK THEN AND FEEL PAIN AND I FEEL LOST. I MISSED SO MUCH OF YOU AND TERRYS LIFES THE BOTH OF YOU HAD BEAUTIFUL FAMILIES... I JUST HOPE THEY REMEMBER HOW MUCH THEY WERE LOVED.. AND BOB YOU WERE LOVED SO VERY MUCH BY YOUR WIFE TERRI. SHE MISSES YOU SO MUCH.. I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE DOES IT. WELL YOU AND TERRY LOK DOWN ON US ONCE AND A WHILE, KEEP US ALL IN LINE WRITE YOU BOTH LATER.. LOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH..

 

                                                GOODNIGHT

                                  LOVE YOUR SISTER LINDA

Hey bro.,

  I have been slacking here lately. I just don't seem to find the time to come out and see you and Terry any more. I miss being able to have the time to do that. I sure miss you and wish you were here with all of us. It just seems so unreal that you are gone. I keep thinking that you will call me on the phone and ask me how mom is doing. Or I hear your voice behind me sometime, and when I go to turn around your not there. Those are the toughest moments, because I know when I turn around your not going to be there, my heart just sinks. I will be in school or driving down the street and I will see someone that looks like you and my heart starts beating fast and when I realize its not you my heart just sinks. I think I would be alright if I could just get over the fact that you r gone, or if people would stop looking and acting like you, then I would be able to move on. But Im stuck in a rut, every where I look, every sound I hear, or just memories of you reminds me of you. It seems the harder I try not to think of you the more I do. Then of course when I start misplacing things it reminds me of you. Because I can look in the same place a million times and then all of a sudden it reappears and I know when that happens my brother has been here to visit me. I dont know how to not miss you. I just wish it were easer then this, but i know its not. Well you take care of us down here and just know that we all love and miss you. Help us figure out how to get through the pain of not having you here any more,

Your little sister Trina

 

Hi Bobby,I am just sitting here thinking about you,and I just wanted to say hi.I have been reading all of these memories that have been written for you,you have alot of folks here that love u and miss u very much.I know you are in a better place now,and you are whole,no more suffering.You and Terry watch over us down here,keep us safe,and could you do me a big favor please,tell my dad,your uncle Charles that I love him and I miss him.

 

Love u,

your cousin Norma

Good afternoon Bob,

I have not had a chance to make it out and see you yet. I keep expecting some kind of revenge from u and Terry. It's been about two weeks since I last came out and visited. Between school and other things going on in my life I seem to be busy all the time. I guess thats good to a degree, I don't seem to have anytime to think about missing u and Terry. But on the other hand I don't have enough time to do the things I enjoy most. One of those things being coming out and visiting with u and Terry. I'm going to try and make it out there this week sometime. If not Sunday I will. I'm now taking care of the boys on weekends and everything. Gary is such a butt head, and you and Terry both know he was born that way. I swear the boy gets more and more dumber the older he gets. Most people get smarter with age, not him he will always make the same mistakes over and over again. I can't talk to anyone in the family about it, they r either so against him, I know u and terry were also, but u cant say I told u so. I can block out the noises in my head from u and terry. Or the people dont understand me or Gary, or the just dont want  to and we all have our own problems. I dont want to bother them over my problems. What i need in the family is a lawyer. Divorces cost a ton, and gary would much rather me pay for it and go out sleeping with God only knows who instead of just getting a divorce and doing things the right way. So that's what im up against. Gary and him being dumb. He knows that there is no way Im going back to him now that he has gone out with another girl, I dont knwo what she may or may not have. And the type of person he is it does not matter to him. So I really and truly wish I would of listened along time ago to what the two of you boys were telling me. Young and dumb. I thought that him and I would be with one another forever. I should know with the Tiptons background, at least all of us have had one divorce, and i was going to be the first one who stayed marriend with no divorces behind me, how stupid I was I. With someone else maybe, but not with Gary. Well thats enough of that, I just wish u and Terry were here so I could get ur point of view on this matter, that's what brothers are for after all give their little sisters advice and this time I would take it for what it is, good sound advice after all only men understand men and u have been there before, divorce after all. I love u and miss you more and more each day.

Keep watching over us and helping us out down here love forever ur little sister, Trina

 

Hi baby, I came to see you today.  Well, actually yesterday since it's 3:30 in the morning.  I can't believe it's almost been 4 months come Wednesday.  It just seems like yesterday.  I can't sleep tonight and I have to go to work.  Ain't gonna happen.  I will fall asleep driving or at my desk and that wouldn't be good.   I will be coming out to see you again on Wednesday like I do every month on the 22nd.  The day I will always hate.  Everything is just going to crap.  I really don't know what to do.  My head just spins.  I have so much going on in my head that my short term memory really sucks.  I'm in such a tailspin that I don't know whether I'm coming or going half the time.  I love and miss you so very much.  Good night my love. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Good evening bro,

Just sitting here thinking about you and wish u were here with us now. I miss u and cant believe  that on Weds. it will be four months since u left us. Im planning on coming out tomorrow, but there is alot of stuff that has to be done at the house. Cody's counsler is coming over on Monday evening to see how things r going here. That boy gets himself into so much trouble, I think he is trying his hardest to get himself put into a different home, he might think he can have a better life there.  Sometimes the best thing to do is just give up on fighting with him and let the chips fall where they may, this has been going on for 12 years, and this i do blame alot on Gary, if he would of been the father like he was suppose to be then Cody would of turned out differently. Wonderful boy wrong father for him, thats why i wish u were here he needs a father figure and who else but my loving and kind hearted brother to show him about respect. This is why i know u and Terry were right when u told me Gary was nothing but trouble and that i would have nothing but heartache and pain as long as i stayed with him. I wish that i would of not been stuborn and listened because now that im not with him u would think all of that would go away, not with Gary, it gets worse. He gets worse!!!! Enough said of that. I love u and miss u, talk to u soon.

Love ur little sister,

Trina

WELL BOB I AM READING SOME OF THE MEMORIES THAT WERE WRITTEN FOR U. AND ALSO SOME OF THE CANDLES THAT WERE LIT... WE ALL MISS YOU AND TERY VERY...VERY....MUCH. JUST TO SEE YOU SMILE ARE LAUGH LIKE YOU USE TOO. I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO HEAR AND SEE THOSE MOMENTS. GO BACK TO SOME OF THE TTIMES WHEN WE ALL WERE STILL LIVING AT HOME, AND GETTING INTO ALL YOU AND TERRY BOTH ARE THOUGHT ABOUT EVERYDAY..

                                                                 WE ALL LOVE YOU GUYS LOVE LINDA

Good evening bro.,

I have not wrote anything to u it seems like forever. Your little bread box graduated the other night. She made us all proud, we all wish u were here to see the accomplishments she has made, I know she would of had you crying. She was beautiful and glowing. You could tell it was the first time in a long time since she really smiled. Losing you has been hard on us all, but mostly Terri and Krystil. Not having her daddio there must of been real tough, we all know u were there in spirit though. And we all tried to yell as loud as we could, to make up for you not being there. I know you would of yelled louder then any of us put together and louder then any of the other guest there too. And Bob like Karen said, Terri was really good for u the last few years u were here. I'm glad the two of u got back together. She's doing as good as she can to hide all the hurt and pain from losing you, but some of us know its a put on. She can't hide it that well, and besides it is expected. I could never image losing someone like the love of my life, specially if they promised me forever. And I hope she knows that she has your family behind her to help her in things if she needs it, and if we can help her, one of us should be able to anyway. After all she is a Tipton, and we all love her for sticking these last few years out with you. In the end she lost you and I imagine that the whole time u were sick she was dreading the day you would go, and many women would of bailed on you. I don't think we show our apprecation enough to her, I don't think enough of us call and check up on her to see if there is anything we can do, or just invite her over for a chat or dinner. We also know that she is busy, because now she has the resposibilites that you had when you were her, and just because she took ur's doesen't mean she can hand the ones over to someone else, she still has them to do. You have a great wife. Someone who never complains, and who loved you no matter what to the bitter end. You could of not done any better when you picked Terri.

You take care of us all down here and keep Terry in line up there because u know how he gets into trouble, he got into trouble just by marrying the wrong girl on earth, and we are still paying for that one, what can he do up there. Now he has more reign over us all. Love you more then words can express and u will be forever in my heart and mind.

 

Your little sister trina

 

 

hey brother i miss you soooooooooooo very much, im so gald you had some one in you're live like terri.she love's you so much,bob i just wish you could be here for her she need's you please keep her safe

david and i went out to see you and terry a couple of weeks ago i hurts knowing that you in terry are gone from all of us but i'm just gald you guy's did'nt suffer.

you take care of us dawn here

 

love little sister karen  

Hi baby, we found out last friday that they reduced our hours to 32 now.  I applied for a part-time job yesterday.  This really sucks.  I've never had to have two jobs in my life.  I hope I do get that job and soon.  I'm going to need the money big time.  Billy came down for his dad's funeral last friday so i got to talk to him for a while Saturday.  I haven't seen him in over 12 years.  He still looks the same and he's still Billy.  He is in Prescott now instead of Prescott Valley.  These next two months are going to be really hard to get through.  You won't be here to share them with us and it won't ever be the same anymore.  My heart still aches for you.  I still cry over you being gone and the things you will miss and the things you used to do and say.  I see you in our kids and grandkids.  I see you in everything in this house.  I don't think I could ever leave this house.  This was our first house we bought.  Our first house we lost and live back in.  There are so many memories in this house.  If I left it would be like I left you here and I don't think I could handle that again.  I love and miss you more than words can ever express. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

   

WELL BOB SITTING HERE AROUND 2AM IN THE MORNING, AND I AM MISSING YOU AND TERRY SO MUCH. IJUST WISH WE COULD OF HAD MORE TIME... WE SPENT SO LITTLE TIME TOGETHER FOR YEARS. I KEEP WANTING TO SPEND MORE TIME, WITH WHAT FAMILY I HAVE LEFT BUT DAD MAKES IT REAL REAL HARD, WANTING TOO ARGUE ALMOST CALLING YOU A LIAR ALL THE TIME, AND IT REALLY HAS NOT ONE THING TO DO WITH HIM ARE HIS LIFE. HE HAS BACKED ME AWAY FROM THE FAMILY FOR A MANY OF YEARS. AND I AM STILL NOT FITTING IN THEIR WORLD. ARE AT LEAST THEY TREAT ME LIKE THAT I NEVER GET A CALL FROM ANY OF THEM, I NEVER GET INCLUDED IN ANY OF THEIR FAMILY THINGS.... BUT I GUESS THATS THE WAY IT HAS TOO BE MAYBE SOMEDAY, THEY'LL UNDERSTAND THAT I ONLY ANTN TO BE AROUND THEM NO ARGUEING NO HASSLES JUST TO BE FAMILY FOR WAHT LITTLE TIME WE MAY HAVE LEFT. THATS WHAT WE NEEDED WAY BEFORE YOU AND TERRY WAS TAKEN FROM ALL OF US NOT JUST FROM SOME OF US ALL OF US. WE NEED TO SEE THE PICTURE. I LOVE AND MISS YOU AND TERRY SO MUCH MOST OF THE TIME, BUT IT'S SO HARD TO THINK OF YOU BOTH NOT HERE. AND REALLY NOT HERE. I KNOW I NEVER REALLY SAW YOU GU'S THAT MUCH BUT I COULD OF JUST THREW MY WAY AROUND YOUR LIFES BUT I DIDN'T BEACAUSE SOME FAMILY MEMBERS MADE THAT ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE. SO NOW I LIVE WITH WHAT MEMORIES I DO HAVE, FROM TIMES PAST. I'LL SEE YOU BOTH AGAIN SOMEDAY YOU TAKE CARE OF TERRY OK. I KNOW HE HAD NO IDEAL HE WOULD BE SEEING YOU THAT SOON. BUT HES HAPPY NOW, ON THIS EARTH HE WASN'T VERY HAPPY FOR QUIET A FEW YEARS. HE DOES NOT HAVE TO WORRY NO MORE ABOUT   FAMILY ARE NOTHING JUST STAYNG I GODS ARMS IN THE HEAVENS ABOVE

                                            LOVE YOUR BIG SISTER LINDA

Hi baby, well our daughter did it last night.  She also graduated with honors and a 4.0 gpa.  When I got there I gave her a dozen roses and one extra from you.  Of course, I started crying as soon as I told her the yello one was from you.  You would have been so proud.  Trina and Elaine came to see her graduate.  Trina said you made her go.  In two weeks she starts her new job and she's really excited.   I missed you not being there to share it with you.  I tried not to show how much it hurt you not being there.  Now I have to go to these things alone.  I love and miss you so much!!!   

Hi baby, tonight our daughter graduates from college.  I am so proud of her.  Tonight will be hard for her and me because you won't be there to celebrate with us.  She knows you are proud of her but it won't be the same as hearing it from you when you hug her to congratulate her.    I just wish you were here to see it personally.  You will have the big seat to watch it up there with Terry.  Let her know you are with her.  I love and miss you so much!  XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Good afternoon Bob,

I was just sitting here looking at your pix. and thinking about how handsome you are, and what a waste is has been that you left us. I know you had to leave, but that does not make it any easier. We all lost out when we lost you. Everday i wish u were still here with us, and everyday I know I am going to get the same answer. Your gone, and there is nothing we can do about it. Cory every once and awhile will bring ur and Terry's names up. Today while we were at Denny's he asked if uncle Bob and Uncle Terry if their last names were Tipton. When we, David and I, gave him the answer he asked why? We just said because God choose to bless us with the two of u. And bless we were, and still r. Just because ur gone does'nt mean ur not part of the family, ur more part of the family now then ever! Maybe ur gone but u will never be forgotten. At least not in my heart and mind. Well u and Terry stay out of trouble, we all know how hard that is for the two of u to do. And keep a eye on all of us down here. Love u more then words can say.

Your sister Trina

Good morning Bob,

I want to thank u for not seeking revenge on me this week for not coming out and seeing u and Terry, thank him also for me. I'm going to try and come out tomorrow to see u, but i have a ton of homework this weekend. Help me make it through the rest of this year, its getting harder and harder as the term goes on. I know u did not like school all that much, but somewhere along lifes way u were able to figure it out so can u and terry please help me. I wish u and Terry where here, i miss the two of u more then words can say. And there are not enough words out there to describe how much I love the two of u. All of us misses u, and I know we all wish u were still with us. Sometimes I sit here and look at ur pix. and I sometimes don't remember when u looked like that or alot of times Ido remember that pix. and I sit and shake my head at what loss we have over u leaving. Such a good looking man, fun loving, kind to his family and friends, silly, good father and husband, and we as ur family are so greatful for having u in our life. We got lucky, but on the other hand we still have to sit back and think about what we are all missing out on. And that is the sad part. When I say I wish u were here with us its not for u to be in pain, I wish the cancer would of left u, and u would of been alright. I know u were scared and I also know that terri was scared to, the day u left even though we expected it, it still was a shock and we still expercience the pain even if u did'nt go unexpectly. And to this day we all wish we would not of gotten that call telling us that u were gone. You know when u get a phone call at 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning u know it can't be good news. And of course it was'nt. That phone call will be forever in my mind. the phone call no one wants to get, ever. But u were in good arms, Terri took good care of u and we are so proud of her for what she faced. U know most women could not of with stood the day in and day out pain of not knowing if u were going to be there or not, they would of hit the high road, u choose a very good person when u choose Terri and Im glad the two of u got back together, at least its comforting knowing that u had her there for u. Well I love u and u take care of us down here, stay with Terri and let her know that u will live on in her heart forever and that as long as she has memories of u u will always be close by her side. Love u and miss u.

Your little sister trina

 

hey bob just thinking about you and how much i miss you.i dont think any of us will ever get over this loosing you and terry mom and talk all the time about u guys and she starts crying i try not to cry around her cause i know it just hurts her more.bob sometimes i find my self laughing remembering something you said and they i start crying because you're gone and i can't call you up and talk to you

i sure miss you and terry i did'nt know how much till you guys r gone i always thought about u both but never did antthing i just knew you where going to be ok i keep telling myself god needed you and terry be it still does help i still hurt and miss u both very much

i love you

 

rerst in plece

Hey Daddio,

It's been a long time. It's very hard for me to do this so I will try my best. I miss you so much! It's hard for me to believe that you're gone. I keep myself distracted with work, school, Garrett and friends. It's like you are at work or you went to the store and I'm still waiting for you to walk through the door. I'm waiting for one day to turn around the kitchen and you will be there pouring yourself a cup of coffee. I finally saw you when your name plate went up. It looks good. I saw Terry also and they did a good job. I haven't been back since cause it's just too damn hard. You're my daddio you're still suppose to be here with me and tell me that Garrett doesnt' do anything wrong and that he is a good boy. We all know otherwise. I'm sure you are laughing your butt off everytime he tells me "no" or "why". I'm graduating from college on the 10th and I won't get to hear the words "I'm proud of you baby". I know you are but it's not the same. I miss coming home and start working and walking into the room and seeing you watch T.V. and laying on the bed with you talking. I'm so grateful that I was able to work from home. I got to spend all that time with you. I don't have any regrets with you and I'm thankful. That Saturday before you passed I wasn't going to say I Love You before I left for Veronica's but I did. And thank God I did. I poked my head in when I got home that night and you were mumbling in your sleep so I left you alone. I was going to wake you up to let you know we were home but I knew you needed your sleep. Veronica says that everytime her and the kids go by the cemetery the kids always say "hi grandpa". They call mom grandma. Randy says that everytime he goes by he waves at you and Terry. Everyone misses you so much and loves you so much! I know the boys miss you but they are your sons so they don't show it. Typical Bob trait. Garrett sees you all the time which makes me haapy. He still recognizes who you are and gets all excited. About 2 months ago me and him were driving down Lindsay and my iPOD was playing "whose going to fill their shoes" and I started crying cause for 1 you would sing that song and for 2 I missed you. Then it felt like you placed your hand on my shoulder at that moment and I knew you were with me. I'm glad that when you passed you weren't suffering and that you didn't get so bad that you couldn't function. I got a tattoo which I know you don't approve of them but I got one anyways. It's for you. It hurt like hell but it was worth it. I know mom is hurting I can see it all over her face but I try to distract her by taking her to the mall on Sunday's and trying to include her in things. I'm glad she is going to see Marc. I hope it helps her. Mom recorded Marc singing. He was mad. I saw it and it was funny. I wish I could go in the bedroom and lay and talk with you again. I wish you would call me up and ask me what I'm doing. I wish I could walk out of a room and you call me back and ask me where would you be if I hadn't called you back. I wish you would say Word Krystle. I wish you were still here. I wish we all have our own wish list. I love you and I miss you Daddio.

Love your pumpkin/bread box,

Krystle

Hi baby, we all have our own guilt about what we should have done, would have done, could have done that it is eating us up inside.  We all have to remember that it is done and gone and we can not change any of it.  We just have to learn from it and accept it and not let it happen again.  You two are already gone, so we can't make it better or change it the way we wanted it.  Hind sight is 20/20.  We can't keep beating ourselves up over the past because it's not going to bring either one of you back.  We only wish it could.  They say the pain will lessen but it will never be forgotten.  You just learn to cope with it in your life.  Of course, I will always have this whole inside me because you were a part of me and now your gone.  You took my heart when you died.  I just miss you not being here to share things with.   I still walk into the bedroom when I get home from work like I always did and hoping to see you laying in bed watching t.v.  As soon as I walk in, the darkness takes over knowing you aren't there and my heart just sinks.  I relieve that dreadfull night over and over in my mind every day.  I just can't get it out of my head.  It's the last precious moment we shared together.  I am so glad I was there.  I didn't want you to go alone.  I was so afraid I would come home and find you gone.  Keep us all safe.  Watch over your big brother.  I miss you so very much.  I love you with all my heart and soul.  XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Good morning Bob,

 

You know it is sad to sit here and think about all the times we could of seen one another. You know for the last 3 years I only lived 10 min. away from u and Terri, I sit and ask myself why I did not attempt to do something about it. And the only answer I get is because I choose not to. Then I also start thinking about the first time I was told u had to take chemo. I kept telling myself I needed to go and see u, but again I choose not to come and see you. I knew that if I saw u I would know that what I was being told was true. And I did not want to think about you leaving us. I have always thought I would have alot of time to make mine and your relationship better then what it was. And I ran out of time. So many years lost, so many regrets about not making things right. I know we can not go back in time, but I wish we could. I would do everything so differently. I would of never loss touch with u, and I  would of been there for u from the start. And now I can't. I try to move forward, but I can't. It is so lonely here knowing that I will never get the chance again to see my big brother, that I will never get the chance to let him know how much I loved him and thought of him, and I won't for along time be able to see u. The days just seem to run into one another, one day goes into the next and each day it just seems like yesterday. Yesterday when I got that phone call from Terri telling us that u were gone. Gone to meet Jesus, and that is when the pain kicked in, and there it has remained. I think it will remain forever. If I could just get my thoughts on forgiving myself for the wasted years of not coming and seeing u, I think I would be better, that I would finally be able to heal, but I can't seem to do that. Because I know there was something I could do about not seeing u, but I did nothing. Bob I wish that when u lived in Queen Creek with mom n dad when u were having dizzy spells and I told u to go to the doctor u would of listened. I know u would of still been here today if I would of followed through. I told u then that it was not normal for people to feel dizzy and that something was wrong. I should of kept bugging u until u did something. But I did not do anything, like Karen I sat back and did nto do anything, I had to live my life, instead of taking the knowledge that I had and telling someone that would of made u go, I sat back and did nothing. I let u down and I robbed myself of being able to spend more time with u. I know us Tipton's can be stuborn, but I also know that if I would of told someone that u needed to see a doctor then I know that u would of gone to see a doctor. Well keep an eye on us down here, we all need to try and forgive our selves for what we did or did not do, I know u would want us to continue to be so hard upon ourselves, but that is so hard, it's not like we can go to u face to face and ask for forgiveness for not being there for u all these years. It is alittle to late even to ask u to forgive us. We all failed u in some way, and I believe that if we would of taken some time out of our lives to find out about Bob and what was happening to him, we would all would of been able to continue our life with u here with us. Well I love u and miss u more then ever, please know that if any of us could of done it for you we would of all gone through it for u. Take care of Terry up there and keep shining ur light down here on us.

Your little sister,

Trina

HEY BRO I SURE MISS HEARING FROM YOU I SAW THINKING ABOUT THE TIME YOU AND JR LIVED WITH MOM N DAD OUT IN QUEEN CREEK I REMEMBER THE TIME I TOLD YOU TO GO TO THE DOCTOR BECAUSE YOU WHERE NOT FEELING GOOD BOB IF I ONLY NEW HOW SICK U WHERE I WOULD OF TOOK YOU MY SELF,I FEEL LIKE I COULD OF DONE SOMETHING BUT I JUST SEAT N DID NOT UA....THING,BOB IT HURTS EVERDAY MY HEART IS SO EMPTY INSIDE KNOWING YOU R NOT HERE WITH US,I LOOK AT THE PICTURES OF YOU AND I WHEN WE WHERE LITTLE YOU KNOW WE WHERE SO CLOSE GROWING UP THERE WAS A SHORT TIME I DIDNT GET TO TALK WITH YOU BUT WE GOT CLOSE AGAIN AND IM SO HAPPY FOR THAT.I REMEMBER WHEN YOU CALLED ME AND TOLD ME THAT YOU HACE CANCER IT BROKE MY HART I DIDNT CRY WHILE I WAS TALKING WHIT YOU BUT AFTER WE HANG UP I JUST CRYED MY HEART OUTAND DIDNT WHAT TO BELIVE IT.BOB I JUST KNOW YOU WHERE GOING TO BE FINE.BOB I WISH I WOULD OF NEVER WENT ON THAT CURISE I WISH I WOULD OF WENT DOWN TO SEE YOU CARL SAID WE WILL GO SEE HIM WHEN WE GET BACK I TOLD CARL I DIDNT THINK YOU WOULD BE THIER HE SAID SURE HE WILL BUT YOU WHERENT YOU LEFT US I WILL NEVER FOR GIVE MY SELF FOR LEAVING KNOWING YOU WHERE DYING AND THAT I MITE NOT EVERE GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN,IM SORRY BOB I LOVE YOU